“Some make me cry all day long”: Carrie Fisher’s Daughter Makes a Heartbreaking Confession About Death of the Star Wars Legend
On the seventh anniversary of Carrie Fisher’s death, her daughter Billie Lourd posted a poignant tribute about her ongoing grief over the loss of the Star Wars icon. In an emotional Instagram post, Lourd reflected on the complex emotions she has experienced since Fisher’s tragic passing at age 60 from a heart attack on December 27, 2016.
Billie Lourd Shares Heartbreak Over Losing Mother Carrie Fisher
Billie Lourd wrote a big heartfelt message for her mother,
“Some [anniversaries] make me cry all day long.”
Lourd wrote candidly about the waves of “rage,” dissociation, emptiness, guilt, and more that have marked her grief journey over the past seven years. This particular anniversary left her feeling “griefull” – a blend of grief and gratitude.
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She shared how losing her celebrated mother has infused her life with a newfound appreciation, saying, “Grief has infused my life with a sense of appreciation I had never had before.”
Fisher’s sudden death was made even more devastating by the loss of Billie Lourd’s grandmother, revered actress Debbie Reynolds, who died from a stroke just one day later while she was planning Fisher’s memorial service.
Billie Lourd was confronted with losing two pillars of her family in the span of a single, dreadful day. Since becoming a mother herself, Lourd has found solace in sharing memories of Carrie Fisher with her young children.
Holding her daughter brought back poignant emotions, as Lourd wrote, “I felt my mom’s presence like the warmth of the sun on your skin on a hot summer day.”
Yet the joy of parenthood also intensifies her grief over all Fisher has missed, saying, “Sometimes the magical moments can also be the hardest.”
How Has Billie Lourd Felt in the Years Since Losing Her Mother?
While candidly naming her pain, Lourd also reflected on how grief has brought newfound wisdom, savoring “every moment of joy as if it were my last.” On this anniversary, she focused on gratitude alongside her sadness, finding meaning in commemorating her late mother.
Lourd extended empathy to others experiencing the loss of a loved one, writing, “Sending my love to all my griefers out there.”
She hoped her message would help others dealing with grief to “feel a little sparkle” amidst the darkness.
Earlier this year, Lourd honored her mother’s memory by attending Fisher’s posthumous Hollywood Walk of Fame ceremony.
She shared her deep connection to Princess Leia, saying, “I’ve fallen deeply in love with Leia and the entire Star Wars universe.”
Though Billie Lourd still feels her mother’s absence profoundly, she is committed to sharing Carrie Fisher’s spirit with her own children.
